Sunday, December 30, 2012

{ a new assassination year }

Since I am dying of boredom here and there because I finished AC II. . .

Sir David was tooooooo pure ( and kind. I kneel to thee illOTL)  to lend me his PSP and let me play Assassin's Creed: Bloodlines. 

No words can describe how much I love AC and their historic adventures and stories. ♥

I will fill my last days with Altair's adventures and more killings. ♥
More and more assassinations for moi. *kufufufufu~

Haha. Anyhooo, time for me to stop goofing around. *ehem ehem*


2012 was a year full of  pleasant and unpleasant surprises all alike.

It was a year full of challenges for me.

I had to say " See you someday again guys" to my college friends during my graduation. And I somehow miss them. And I still do until now.

Got to meet new ones at work. And they're too flexible to accept me whole-heartedly. ( You know how stupid I can sometimes be Haha ) My friends should be awarded with a prize for " LONGEST TOLERANCE OF MAU'S STUPIDITY AND STUBBORN-NESS EVER" medal.

If I can't see them, my days somehow feel so incomplete. Especially when I can't bicker with Nora and Tara. 

Next year's a new year. Goodbye to 2012, and say hello to 2013.

There will be new encounters, new friends, a new love life ( haha. ignore. me.) and new problems so we have to brace ourselves to what's to come. We made it through year 2012 without having to experience a zombie apocalypse and et cetera.

For those friends I've hurt, I sincerely apologize from the bottom of my heart. You know how stubborn I can be sometimes. :'( But still I would like to say thank you for putting up with me throughout.

For the people I parted my ways with, you guys and I both know that there were lessons learned from the past. And we have to take one step forward from it and never ever look back.

And for my family, I love you so much. Thank you for all the support and all the laughter and gabs you guys gave me.

I love you ma, daddy and kuya. ♥



They say "polka dots" bring good luck for the new year.

Time to brag about the dots then. ♥



Monday, December 24, 2012

{ Happy Holidays everyone}

I had fun from yesterday's Christmas Party in our company.

Everybody was dressed so beautifully. (;_;) ♥

This was the venue before the party started.

The company rented Skyrise 4 Bldg.'s whole 6th floor to accommodate the number of employees and staff of QQ.

It was full of ubber fun and excitement.

The food was delicious and the presentations were funny and great

It was a one-time celebration for the yuletide season.


I would like to appreciate these people.

Miss Rinah( our female vocalist) , Sir Clint ( our lead guitarist), Sir David(our male vocalist/beatboxer)  and Miss Gayle (our keyboardist). ♥

And of course, yours truly, the bassist.

 Because of these people, every session was memorable. I get to perform in front of our company's audience ( and of course, in front of the big bosses), with them.

They are so fun to be with. I want to do more giiiiiigs♥ with them.

You are the best guys! ♥

( Excuse the photo. I'm so faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat ;_; )

Let's prepare more songs for encore emergencies. Hahaha~ :DD

The songs we performed were:

1.) Call Me Maybe - Payphone Mashup

2.) Lucky - Jason Mraz ft Colbie Calliat

3.) Drive - Incubus

4.) Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis ( Boyce Avenue Cover)

5.) Iris - Goo Goo Dolls ( Boyce Avenue Cover - I managed to get the bass part here, Thank the Lord ;_;)

6.) A Thousand Years- Christina Perri


Additional songs:

7.) Price Tag - Jessie J

8.) Irreplaceable - Beyonce'

9.)  Collide - Howie Day

10.) Magbalik - Callalily

I also had fun with my friends. Without them, I would have been in terrible terrible darkness. ;_;

me & ren ♥


I would like to greet everyone HAPPY HOLIDAYS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR.

And to my father, Ely D. Sarcon,


Thursday, December 20, 2012

{ atashi no kokoro }

This was sent to me via Skype by my student Akari Sakon on my birthday.

She told me in one of our conversations that she can see Mt. Fuji just outside her window. I told her how I wished I was there to share the beautiful scenery with her. ( I always wanted to go to Japan)

And this was a total surprise from her just as our class was about to end. She sent me this simple gift that will be always be remembered. I was soooooo touched.  Really really touched. ;_; My tears were full of colors.

This week would be the last week that I get to spend with my girls.

Thank you for all the time and et cetera et cetera girls. ♥

Akari Sakon

 I spazzed when I saw how pretty she is. 人形みたい     (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ ♥

Mai Matsukawa & Ayano Deguchi

I love Mai's cheerfulness and energy ( ◕‿↼)> and Ayano's innocence. (•ω•)

~ Sorry if I took some snapshots without permission ~ :C

and look what Mai and Ayano have for me. TADAAAAAA~ It almost made me crrrrryyyyyy ლ(ಠ益ಠლ)

Mai's message to me:

" Thank you for the lessons of 20 days.
I'm not good at English very really, but I was able to become a little love.
During lessons, I had a good time.
I finish the lesson is sad.
I was nice to be able to learn the teacher Mau.
Thanks a lot. "


*sulks in corner*


Yukino Hosobuchi

( she was the one who took the photo of Mai and Ayano)

And she has the cutest adorable laugh ever (⌒▽⌒) ♥

 Okuyami moushiagemasu to your grandfather. :<

Megumi Yamada

~ her smile brightens up my day~ (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧

She got sick for one week but I'm glad she's okay now. YEYYYY~

Megumi sent me a picture of her two stuffed toys. ♥



Mau-sensei will surely miss the five of you. ;_; You guys were great and I hope we'll see each other again in the future. You guys were more like friends to me than students.

Make sure to do your best when taking the test.

I'm sure the five of you will do well. ♥

マウ先生きっと寂しいよ </3








My wallet is missing, and today, I wasn't able to drive my car to work ( because my driver's license is in my wallet). ;_;

I just hope my family will be able to find it once I get home. (;_;) This is a bad day. A bad sign for a bad day.

I just hope the party tonight will help lift my spirits up. Sigh.



I am one happpeeeeh daughter.

Listening to:

Goodbye is Goodbye by Lonestar

Friday, December 14, 2012

{ final farewell }

I fell in love once.

& realized...

" If this is what love feels like, then I'm done with it."

I know I'm being back to emo and all that but I just need to let it out. Otherwise, I would go crazy.

Sometimes, when life pulls you down, you have to struggle to stand up again. And YOU MUST.

I'm back to being bitter. Haha. But this will pass. Don't cha worry. I have my friends.

Not self-proclaimed ones. :)

To move on, you have to erase those that will pull you back to the past. So yeah. Will do some cleaning of the past.

* will tear some letters*


I said "Boy can I tell you a terrible thing?
It seems that I'm sick and I've only got weeks.
Please don't be sad now, I really believe,
I thought we had a chance and you were meant for me"


I received a gift on my birthday.

And tadaaaaa~ It's so colorful and full of bliss. ♥

Thanks to Mark for this beautiful gift.
I really appreciate it. *hugs you*

You made me feel butterflies in my stomach for a very long dormant mode. Haha.

I was smooooned. ~ =(*v*)=



I get to experience a 13th month pay ♥ SO full of.... *_*


I'm not feeling well today. ;_;

My feet's cold and I feel so dizzy. It reminded me of the time I fainted in the office last August. ;_;

Please don't let that happen again.

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

{ Burpday}

YEY! Google greeted me! (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧






















Haha. Just kidding.

People are bombarding me with greetings and I went to work in all reds. Haha. So I'm like blood-red right now.

I'm not a teenager but a young adult.

Goodbye "teen" years. Hello "-ty" years.


I sound....

so old .

When I was at the age of 19, there were lots of trials and hardships. And not to mention, lot of lessons learned.

I get to experience lots of new emotions for the first time.

It was a year of ups and downs of my life.


no regrets.

 I have to keep striving forward. I'm still young. ( ;_; ) I guess.


Dear God,

Thank you for everything. Thank you for guiding me in life. I may be stubborn at times, and rebellious, but I really really thank you. For everything. I get to meet new friends but have to say goodbye to old ones. ;_;

But that's life. I know. Being at the age of 19 was a blast. It was full of ... surprises. Sad and happy ones alike.

I love you. And I pray, and hope, that you will guide me and my family once again now that I have taken one step closer to life's struggles. And I pray, may this year have more pleasant surprises than sad ones.




I would like to thank everyone for the greetings even though the day has not ended yet.

Will update blog in the future.

Saturday, December 8, 2012

{ terrible things }

By the time I was your age, I'd give anything to fall in love truly.
It was all I could think.
That's when I met your father.
The boy of my dreams.
The most beautiful man that I'd ever seen.
I said " Boy can I tell you a wonderful thing?
I can't help but notice you staring at me,
I know I shouldn't say this, but I really believe,
I can tell by your eyes that you're in love with me."
Now Saf, I'm only telling you this because life can do terrible things.

Now most of the time we'd have too much to drink .
And we'd laugh at the stars and share everything.
Too young to notice and too dumb to care.
Love was a story that couldn't compare.
He said "Girl  can I tell you a wonderful thing?
I made you a present with paper and a ring,
open with care now, I'm asking you please,

you know that I love you,

will you marry me?"

Now Saf, I'm only telling you this because life can do terrible things.

Now those were the times that we loved and we cared.
Like we don't have a thing in the world left to bear.
We promised and vowed the same thing again.
That we'd love each other until the world's end.

Now Saf, I'm only telling you this because life can do terrible things.

You'll learn one day, and I hope and I pray that God shows you life differently.






He said " Girl can I tell you a terrible thing?
It seems that I'm in love with somebody else.
Please don't be sad now, and please stop those tears.
You were the greatest thing that ever happened to me."

Slow, so slow, I fell to the ground on my knees.

I couldn't even bear to tell him there's a life somewhere beneath.


So don't fall in love there's just too much to lose.
If you're given the choice, I'm begging you to choose.
Don't let it get you, I can't bear to see

That you'd go through the same suffering that life gave to me.

Now Saffy, my daughter, I'm only telling you this, because life can do terrible things.

Friday, December 7, 2012

{ i am sick and tired }


This is a rant.



It's quite sickening. And stupid. And I know YOU are reading this. 

It's quite funny. Funny, indeed. 

Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. 

Live your life like you want it to be, and I will live my life the way I want it to be.

Let's live our lives separately.


Don't kill me with the same thing again.

Thursday, December 6, 2012

{ i don't want this to end}

Well. . . I think I'm already close to the end of  Assassin's Creed II. I'm not quite sure but ... I have this... feeling I already am.

The painful part is: I don't want it to END yet. ;_; WHY OH WHY!?  This is what you get when you're really into the game. You get to finish it earlier than expected. Mau doesn't approve at all. ლ(ಠ益ಠლ)

I already defeated Rodrigo Borgia(the main reason why Ezio's( Ezio is the protagonist assassin in AC 2) father and brothers got executed because of his tyranny) but he managed to escape.

I thought it would be the end of it. But so faaaaar, so good. No credits and cut scenes showing an ending appearing. This is a good sign. Whew. (;一_一)>

I got to play Assassin's Creed I yesterday in an internet cafe'. And damn, the feeling left me reeling.  I want to play it in my own comfort and time. Altair was so badass. He sounds so arrogant and impatient, which is a plus point for the story of ancestry. It keeps the story burning like that.


And now to introduce the legendary...








I mean, come on, I already collected the 6 pedestals of the ancient assassins from their corresponding tombs and got through the traps and puzzles somehow. And TADAAAA, I was able to unlock the ARMOR OF ALTAIR. This is one of the reasons why I want to follow the story of the game.  Altair( the protagonist of AC 1) somehow has a big connection to Ezio in Assassin's Creed 2. So EPIC if you ask me.

All in all, I will play Assassin's Creed II again tonight. I am so happy that my brother will let me use the computer every night just for me to have time and play AC II. I love you brother. Here. Let me give you a kiss. (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ Chuuuuuuu.


" I want to make sure what I feel inside. I want to know. "

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

{ i'm an assassin \(*u*)/ }


And I spazz on my own badass-ness. ♥

Since I'm done with Amnesia: The Dark Descent, I got to have even much more...hmmm... what's the word? ...


Super and super addicting game.

I have to say buh-bye to Amnesia and its protagonist Daniel because my computer got reformatted. There was an undetected virus in the system and keeps doing alt + tabs.

The Alt + Tabs were very... very... annoying. (;一_一) Believe me.

Stupid virus.

So we had to get rid of it.

But it's gone now. Together with my pictures, my videos, my etcs. with it. Sigh.

But I have to stay positive. I have some new badass games to boot with it ( Assassin's Creed II and Call of Duty Black Ops).

I see guys playing Assassin's Creed in internet cafe's and all that shiz, but I never. . . I mean, NEVER... imagined that it would be this awesome. I AM SPAZZING IN MY OWN DELIGHT.

I exchanged my REST DAYS with this game. I offered my soul and time for it. I even woke up 4 am in the morning and slept 2 am. Hahaha. Yeah. Even now, I'm still imagining myself climbing houses, walls, escaping from guards, assassinating people... and doing some leaps of faith. Hahaha. And also, getting laid. Yeah BABY. Hahaha.

I want to download myself some Assassin's Creeds. I want to play Assassin's Creed I, II, and Brotherhood. ( Well since Assassin's Creed III is out from the Desmond Mile's ancestry which is played in another story and another plot) I want to indulge myself with these kinds of games. I want to know the story behind Altair in Assassin Creed I because he keeps popping out in Desmond's memories ( the protagonist of Assassin's Creed II).
I think this would be the second game that I'm really into. And when I mean, "into", I really mean INTO. The first game was no other than the FATAL FRAME SEQUEL.
Playing Fatal Frame brings back memories of screams and masochistic emotions. ♥

Your random blogger,


( Thanks to Ara's phone for the flawless photo even though it's blurd C;)

Saturday, December 1, 2012

{ The End of the Memory }

I realized that the title for this blog is somewhat... BADASS! *snickers*

Haha. Anyhooo, I finished the game Amnesia. So many puzzles, so many thrills and so many nightmares to boooot. o.o

Okay, now on to the progress. Now that I have escaped from the prison that the grunt took me in, I have to get back to the source of all this monstrosity. ( I sound like I'm a mad scientist) Well to the looks of it, I somehow am because I was doing some experimenting with a pot full of blood, bone remnants and a poisonous fungi plant to make Weyner's Tonic for Agrippa.

My favorite part of playing Amnesia is that you get to play with fire and imagine yourself as a chef. You get to burn pots and chemicals ( IRL, I don't know how to cook. I think I took it out on this game my frustrations of being a chef-wanna-be Haha)

Burning a jar of blood

Made some finishing touches for the Tonic

- crushed the fungi plant like a boss with some contraption-

After making the tonic, you have to give Agrippa the tonic and let him drink it. Haha. Agrippa drank it like his life depends on it. Well, who would blame him after chained like that? After he drank the tonic, he then told me something similar to this:

" Quick! Off with my head. Remember, you have to get my head through the gate."

I was absorbing the words. Not quite sure how I understand it though. I was like, " Eh, head?" o.O " What head?"

I saw a crumbled wall on the left part of this area. The crumbling of the castle may have caused an opening because of the shadow.

So I went in that mysterious opening and found myself a ROOM. YEY! A SECRET ROOM! Hahaha~ I get to loot some tinderboxes ( still absorbing the words of Agrippa in my head o.o) and then I saw...

*drum rolls*

... A BONE SAW...

And there, it hit me like thunder. " OH. HIS HEAD."

I picked the bone saw up and I went back to... ;_; *sobs in corner*




I am a monster. 

He instructed me to get his head through the gate. It must be part of the game. So I must live it up to his last words. ;_;

I went back to the chancel and hid as the monster's growl echoes throughout this area. I crouched and slowly sneaked my way in. He went through the room in the left , WHICH was MY DESTINATION. ;_;

And thus... I was...

*ninja mode on*

I sneaked my way in towards the gate on the right to destroy the machine that controls the entrance to the orb chamber. I took a small boulder near the *udhaudffgawgefgw*'s feet and I was breathing rapidly because of the tension that consumed me.  It is because of the music and the ambiance that this game is having. WHY GAME!? WHY!? ლ(ಠ益ಠლ)

After throwing the big rock to the machine slash contraption slash whatever-you-call-it, it got destroyed. MUAHHAHAHA~ Alexander, YOU ARE GOING DOWN. (╯°□°)╯︵(\ .o.)\

I went back to the inner sanctum and put the orb's pieces back together so it would stop the deadly entrance of DOOM. Haha. ( it would stop the electricity flowing in human words).

And taaaaaaaadaaaaaaa. When I placed the last piece of the orb back...

...this happened...

The orb(on the left) somehow sucked the deadly energy from that entrance (there on the right). 

And I was wearing my 3D glasses on. (⌐■_■)

After that epic moment, you get to go into another room. And this room is the penultimate of this game. ;_;

After spazzing over the large room (once again - same thing happened with the transept ;_;), i saw a lever in one of the columns and did some "ooooooh-what's-this-lever-do?" gesture.

A room at the left part of this area opened and, as a curious cat that I am, went in. First, I was like... What the name am I going to do here? I saw some weird sink thingy that was at the right and observed the pattern that was carved on the wall at the opposite side. A hand icon appeared when I loomed the mouse over it, so I decided to become the curious cat. Haha. And when I clicked it, I took some damage. ;_;

I backed up and stepped on some pattern-carved wall( as the curious-scaredy cat that I am) and I heard the MUSIC. ( = the music that will be played when you made progress.) And I was like, o.o " Eh? What did I do?"

And then lightning hit me again. I'm supposed to offer some blood before facing Alexander and before going to the last area, THE ORB CHAMBER. *scary music on*

So I did the same procedure to the other room located at the right part. After doing so, the shadow appeared out of nowhere and I got insane. That high-pitch frequency sound is love. ♥

And after all the adventures and scary squeals I went through, I have finally. FINALLY. Reached the last room where you battle it out with Alexander.

The Legendary Orb Chamber

And in this room, I finally get to meet that freaking *censored*, ALEXANDER.

I can't believe that this game would show... his...LIFE... out..ಠ_ಠ

I was confused at first. He was talking about " time is running out" and "join me in this conquest, Daniel." and yada yada.

I was like...


" I have to kill this MADAPAKA RIGHT NOW."

This was on repeat in my mind at that moment. Haha. And then when I loomed the mouse over the columns that hold that mysterious glowing power, lightning HIT me again.


I did the same thing to all four columns.

And Alexander was like ...

When he said those words, REGRET hit me like a knife. EH!? I DID ALL THOSE HORRIBLE THINGS AND I'M GONNA DIE AT THE END ALL THE SAME!? Mau doesn't approve. ლ(ಠ益ಠლ)

HAHAHA! BUT IT DIDN'T! He was the one who vanished into thin air and I was left alive and breathing. I did the right thing. And for once and for all, I have FINALLY finished the game after a looooong hiatus from it. ( yes, you can call me a pussy.)

That is how I ruled this game. ♥

Curiosity and itchy hands led me to triumph.

Since I'm done with this game, I'm thinking of playing the Penumbra series, but how about you guys: what horror games can you recommend? Please leave a comment. *winks*

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

{ to the lantern we go}

When it comes to teamwork, I guess that's US. Hahaha. There are gabs and grabs here and there last Sunday at my house. Moments like those are picture-perfect so I decided to take out my cam and take some photos.

Let's start off with my one-year old baby, Zeus. (*´・v・)

It's been such a long time since I took him out for a walk. So I decided to bring him with me when I fetched my friends at McDo I.T. Park. I think he needed some fresh air at that time and some shine from the sun. (^~^)

So everybody gathered at my house and there we started brainstorming on how to make our very own lantern for QQE's lantern-making contest for Christmas.

And not to mention, Oda's luscious "papa" payed a visit to help with our selfish requests. He was so great with the electronics and stuff that guys usually are good at. While, I was left with awe. Hahaha.

And also we had a volunteer. Some help from the little hands.  ( ´ ▽ ` )ノ

Well, I admit it. She was not helping at all. More like helping herself out with our phones. Hahaha.

And the guys doing their stuff. Inno and Fil doing what boys do best. Hahaha.  To be our heroes. 

The process of making our very own indigenous belen.

We scavenged for some indigenous materials from our backyard. Hahaha. Epic ain't it?


Hahaha. Pearly was like " I'm Fabulous." against Jera. Haha.

Moving on...

Suzie looks so coooooool here. o.o She looks like a man. ♥

And Cesy doing some magic poses for the camera. ;)

As night fell, these were their looks. Hahaha. ♥

Epic face here by Kat texting her papa "luscious" too. Hahahah.  ♥ Ooooh, love.

And here is our belen. I am so proud of my friends that they managed to make this. oooh, what a proud friend I am. I realized " You can't get through this world without your friends." ( ̄ー ̄)

I won't show you guys our lantern yet. It is not the time. Hahaha. Maybe after the competition I might. We hope to win. ヽ( ̄д ̄;)ノ



LET ME TELL YOU GUYS THAT I AM SO PROUD OF YOU. I REALLY REALLY AM. YOU GUYS ALWAYS COMPLETE MY DAY AT WORK AND SUPPORTED ME THROUGH MY THICKS AND THINS. I would like to tell you guys that you have taken another one big leap towards life and may our friendship grow stronger as ever before. (JIMMY) Hahaha. I love you guys.


I want to kiss you guys one by one starting with a big wet kiss to Nora. Hahaha.
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