Tuesday, November 27, 2012

{ to the lantern we go}

When it comes to teamwork, I guess that's US. Hahaha. There are gabs and grabs here and there last Sunday at my house. Moments like those are picture-perfect so I decided to take out my cam and take some photos.

Let's start off with my one-year old baby, Zeus. (*´・v・)

It's been such a long time since I took him out for a walk. So I decided to bring him with me when I fetched my friends at McDo I.T. Park. I think he needed some fresh air at that time and some shine from the sun. (^~^)

So everybody gathered at my house and there we started brainstorming on how to make our very own lantern for QQE's lantern-making contest for Christmas.

And not to mention, Oda's luscious "papa" payed a visit to help with our selfish requests. He was so great with the electronics and stuff that guys usually are good at. While, I was left with awe. Hahaha.

And also we had a volunteer. Some help from the little hands.  ( ´ ▽ ` )ノ

Well, I admit it. She was not helping at all. More like helping herself out with our phones. Hahaha.

And the guys doing their stuff. Inno and Fil doing what boys do best. Hahaha.  To be our heroes. 

The process of making our very own indigenous belen.

We scavenged for some indigenous materials from our backyard. Hahaha. Epic ain't it?


Hahaha. Pearly was like " I'm Fabulous." against Jera. Haha.

Moving on...

Suzie looks so coooooool here. o.o She looks like a man. ♥

And Cesy doing some magic poses for the camera. ;)

As night fell, these were their looks. Hahaha. ♥

Epic face here by Kat texting her papa "luscious" too. Hahahah.  ♥ Ooooh, love.

And here is our belen. I am so proud of my friends that they managed to make this. oooh, what a proud friend I am. I realized " You can't get through this world without your friends." ( ̄ー ̄)

I won't show you guys our lantern yet. It is not the time. Hahaha. Maybe after the competition I might. We hope to win. ヽ( ̄д ̄;)ノ



LET ME TELL YOU GUYS THAT I AM SO PROUD OF YOU. I REALLY REALLY AM. YOU GUYS ALWAYS COMPLETE MY DAY AT WORK AND SUPPORTED ME THROUGH MY THICKS AND THINS. I would like to tell you guys that you have taken another one big leap towards life and may our friendship grow stronger as ever before. (JIMMY) Hahaha. I love you guys.


I want to kiss you guys one by one starting with a big wet kiss to Nora. Hahaha.

Saturday, November 24, 2012

{ i want to do a sideline}

A sideline of modeling. A sideline of dancing. A sideline of drawing things whatever comes into mind. A sideline of
sidelines. And a sideline of et ceteras. I want to color my life with neon and bold colors.
I think I'm gonna become the MAU that I used to be.
i miss her. ( ≧Д≦)

I think it's about time to revive her.

I know she's gonna rock. She's a sweet and happy girl. You'd love her.

Marky's shots were extravagant. It looks like I'm some sort of me, and not me. Haha.

Magic of photoshop.

P.S. I miss this body. I'm gonna work out again. Like hanging at some arcade center to lose those unwanted bellies.

I want to endorse again how I am inspired by these fine ladies.

Camille Co and Kryz Uy. ♥

Me cosplaying as Yuna from Final Fantasy X.

And Yhannie cosplaying as Millia Rage from BlazBlue.

Just some ramdom feature of a random photo.

Bear with me. I am random these days. *giggles*

P.S. My longing for a DSLR is consuming me. I kept telling myself to be patient and to reach for my dreams. But my dreams are still too far away. *^* I need motivation. I need inspiration. I need a SIDELINE. HAHA~

And also I got myself a bleach. Yeah. Those peelings of skins. Yeah. Those kinds of bleach.

My face is peeling, and the bleaching cream I bought kind of work. I was targeting the dark spots on my face and it really really worked. :3

I'm not gonna show you a random photo of my face peeling. That would be like EEW. Hahaha. Maybe the post result would turn out nice than the snake skin.

Till next blog everyone.

I'm gonna be even more random so watch out. (`・ω・´)”

Friday, November 23, 2012

{ Demi Lovato}

I adore her.

Her songs are so full of emotions. Like she's reaching out to the audience that THAT is really what she's feeling inside.

 Her voice. Is so strong and very very endearing at the same time.
my all-time faves so far are Fix a Heart and Catch Me.

Famous as :

Actress, singer

Birth Name :

Demetria Devonne Lovato

(ooooh, (●´∀`●) stalker mode on. )

Birth Date :

August 20, 1992

( That's just like... 4 months older than moi')

Birth Place :

Dallas, Texas, USA

Claim to fame :

As Mitchie Torres in Disney Channel Original Movie "Camp Rock" (2008)

I don't know why I get to like her this much. ヽ(;▽;)ノ
My heart. Just. Beats. Every time I listen to her songs.
Her everything.

She is also one of my inspirations.
Besides Camille, Kryz and Lau.
The fashion bloggers.

Check Camille's site:


Check Kryz's site:


Check Lau's site:


P.S. It's such a waste that Demi and Joe broke up.

But I'm glad they remained friends.

Even had a photo shoot together after their break up.


Tuesday, November 20, 2012

{ progress }

Okay. I spent my whole rest days playing Amnesia and it's a time well-spent.  ♥

Back to where we left off, I progressed to the sewers and it seems fine. Haha. Later did I realize that there would be evil lurking around the corner.

Haha. I ran for my life, catching my breath(IRL) as the monster chased me around the endless sewers. My brother was screaming, ( only to put pure pressure on moi') and I ended up in a room with a ladder in it ( still with the monster chasing me around). I clicked the ladder icon to climb as fast as I can, but due to the pressure I am bearing, I forgot to press W, and thus the monster caught up with me, and I got killed. And not to mention, I screamed endlessly (IRL). HAHAHA~ My poor little heart.

So eventually, I respawned and am glad there was no monster to chase me around anymore the second time. So I climbed the ladder in peace. And thus, I found myself in the Nave.

TADAAAA! The Nave.

So I climbed out of a well. Yeah. It gives off the " Sadako" lifestyle.

There are four doors. One door's locked, the other door leads to dead end so we're down to two. The other one leads to a room with two levers in it. And the other is left to uncover most of the mysteries in this game. So finishing with the other room( which I found some important items), I continued and progressed to the mystery door. This door eventually led me to AGRIPPA's CHAMBER. *scary background music on*

Poor Agrippa.

So yeah, this poor man eventually asked you for help. He tells you to pull a switch near him, and then as you do, the fungi poison eventually starts to go out from a small machine. In short, he asked you to end his life in mercy. ;_; Euthanasia duuuude. EUTHANASIA! After all this crap, he thanked you for it and tells you some important information. So there, you progressed to the CHANCEL.

*thunder sound on*

Welcome to the Chancel.

So some short information about the Chancel:

The Chancel is apparently a bottomless pit, with four side rooms connected by bridges. One leads to the Nave, one to the Inner Sanctum, one to the machine that powers the Sanctum's protective shield, and one that leads to a room filled with statuettes, bookshelves and a blood-covered altar( a dead end). The Chancel is lit by torches glowing with eerie blue-green flames. SO just imagine passing through the bridge with eerie torches flickering and creepy voices coming out from it. 

So as we progressed to the inner sanctum, it is blocked by a channel of electricity. In order to pass through, you have to search for the remnants of the orb and gather the pieces together which are found to be in the choir and in the torture chambers. So you have to go back all the way through and to the Nave, and activate the two levers which you managed to fix in the game.

So after fixing the two big gates that are found in Agrippa's chamber, you find yourself in a fork way. In my case though, I headed to the left gate first. " When in a fork way, it is always best to go to the left first." That's my own philosophy I just made from the game. FUFUFUFU. *w*

So the left gate I was. And TADAAAAAA. THE TRANSEPT: Another fy9pewtfh43hv803hpf area to dhf9ehggnh[4whe4[ on. (((( ;°Д°))))

The spiral staircase leads to a room, with some items to grab on. So eventually, this is the base room of the torture chambers. There are doors here which lead to the different torture chambers. So to make progress, you have to go in them one by one and gather the orb pieces. Your objective, remember, is to gather the orb's pieces in order to proceed to the inner sanctum. I think I'm almost at the end of the game and I don't even know if I got the good, normal or bad ending. ;_; So this kind of stinks.

So after you have looted all the lootables in this area, you have to go back and head to right gate which leads to the Choir via the Choir Entrance.

The choir entrance is a hallway with two rooms opposite each other. Going to the left room first, ( as what my philosophy is), you get to have a flashback where Daniel got really... really.... scary and ... eerie... and... WHO DO I KID!? He gooooooot maaaaaaad!!! INSANELY MAD! ヽ(゜ロ゜;)ノ

He mercilessly experimented on that body above ;_; So after all the drama and the looting, you get to go outside to the hallway again and you see two bodies hanging from the ceiling ( which is really spooky). So on to the Choir I go.

This is the scariest and the most confusing area I have been in so far. And this room is all dark and RED. I have to stick to the walls to guide me through this insanely large area. There are monsters looming everywhere, so that means, no lamps for us. There are other rooms here that got the other orb's pieces. Basically, all in all, you have to sneak your way in every inch in every angle. When I was done with all the this spooky crap, I hurried ( in a sneaky way) to the exit. BUT UNFORTUNATELY, a Grunt spotted me. And another Grunt. And another. I RAN AS FAST AS I CAN TO THE DOOR AND DIDN'T DARE LOOK BACK.

This lovely gruesome handome young crit, just won't leave you alone. *smiles with tears*

I managed to get out with no scratches btw from the RED ROOM OF PAIN.

Now that you have all the pieces together, you go back to the Inner Sanctum entrance to put all the orb's pieces together to battle out Alexander for the last time. BUUUUUUT...

Yes, there's a but. ( which is kind of unexpected). As I was heading back to the chancel, there were three grunts that caught me off guard and TADAAAAAA~ I got captured by those handsome people.

My very own paparazzi. 。゚(゚ノД`゚)゚。

I thought I got killed by the grunts, but eventually, it IS part of the game that you are captured by them. So I found myself waking up in a cell that the grunt took me in.

Well due to the smartass that I am, I managed to get out without using a spoon as a shovel ( you know, from those movies). =.= and yes, I was  trying to make you laugh.
I get to loot some items here and there, and I managed to get out back to the nave. MUAHAHAHAH~ I am ebiiiiilllll.

The locked door in the Nave was the cell's entrance ( if you have been reading my blog and followed all throughout.)

So yeah, I'm practically right there at the moment. I can't wait to finish the game. I am anxious to know what kind of ending would I end up with. I hope Daniel defeats Alexander. (´Д`。)

okay, that would be all folks. And i know that this blog post is long. Haha. I DID tell you that I would update my progress in the game. So there you go. Haha.


Gotta get my nails painted with artsy cutesy fuuuufffys today. ♥

YAAAAAY!~  Till next blog everyone.

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

{ amnesia: the dark descent }


I'm back to gaming mada pakas!

And to Amnesia: The Dark Descent is where we shall find chills and adventure all mixed up together at the same time.

Now a quick summary of this 1st person view game:

Amnesia is a survival horror game developed by Frictional Games, who previously developed the Penumbra series (next target for moi'). You get to play Daniel, who at first woken up, suffering from an amnesia. He found himself in an empty hallway, light-headed and with strange traces of pink liquid all over the floor. ( The pink liquid was probably the potion he drank to get himself an amnesia). So this is where the adventure begins. You have to unravel the mysteries of  Brennenburg and your memories start to come together piece by piece. You will eventually discover that you have to stop and kill a man named Alexander. As you get yourself closer to the truth, it would get more and more interesting and spine-chilling. You get to meet random-spawning monsters called as GRUNTS and the funny thing is; you only have a lamp as a weapon to fend off the horror that awaits you. Your only way to survive is to run and hide. ヽ(゚Д゚)ノ

Summary by yours truly (c) Mau. (´ω`★)

A Grunt.

I've made progress at the prison and now I'm already at the Cistern area. I've also done all the puzzles in the Control Room and in the Water Cistern area. I was so lucky there were no grunts there. ;_; Otherwise, I would've wet my pants like a baby. Hahaha.

The most interesting area I have gone so far was the Morgue. I've found bodies that are said to only be one-day old and is still in the stage rigor mortis. Hahaha. I've done some live surgery on a body to inject myself with the antidote against the fungi poison that is said to be found in the sewers. There was also a live crematorium in the morgue. I found bodies everywhere.


Also in this area, you get to encounter the BRUTE for the first time.

Daniel gets to have another lover chasing him around. Oh, Daniel. You and your pheromones. ♥

In my part, I hid in the room in the right filled with decaying bodies and water. ( I almost got insane)


Now I'm in this terrifying area. THE SEWERS. 

Because of the game Amnesia, every time I encounter water in this game, I get to imagine that invisible water monster( a Kaernk). DOH! But luckily in this area, you only get to hide from a Brute.


A sneak peek of the sewers. ♥

The filthy, lovely sewers of Brennenburg.

Till my next blog and update on this game. ♥

Gotta bring a friend to my house to let him play this wonderful, endearing game. ;>

Thursday, November 8, 2012

{ pieces of my heart}

Hey everyone. I've been hogging up the pen and paper the past few months to write what I felt at that moment. I was thinking to share it with you guys. It kind of make me feels better to share the burden of my heart at the moment. So Viola'.

JULY 16, 2012

What's wrong with this feeling called " Love"? Why does it include unbearable pain and lies? Why does it make people realize that generally? It hurts to hope and expect at the same time. Hoping that someone better would come along. Expecting that THAT 'someone better' would be YOUR 'someone better'. Then again, disappointments are always there. It's always YOU that will stand when you're down. It's just a matter of choice.


JULY 18, 2012

One week of diversion, one week of inspiration. One lost love, one hope's lost. I don't want to expect and I don't want to hope. So much for every chance that are neither wrong nor gone. It sometimes hurts, but the feeling's bland. As long as I stay amidst some uncertainty. I don't want to fall; I don't want tricks. I want reality to prove no truth in magic. This maybe the last feeling I will be able to feel once more.

- MAU -

JULY 19, 2012

You always surprise me and will always catch me in my most unguarded moment. When I keep hoping and expecting, you aren't there. But when I was about to give up, you shone hope once again. I really really like you. Not because of the reason that some may think, but I like you. If only we would have moments together. I can't wait. I hope that you would like me too. Because I'm really wishing that my feelings will reach you.


JULY 20, 2012

I admit. I'm still hurting. And I have to endure this pain to protect myself. Otherwise, I'll be in a losing battle. He knows that he was my first love. He was my everything. I know I acted strong on the facade but I'm about to break down. I know I said or acted as strong and gutsy, but what I didn't know is this: this task you call "moving on" is difficult. It's so difficult. I know I have to divert my attention toward other factors, but these aren't enough.

-MAU </3-

A poem I made sometime between the months of August-October. ( I forgot when, never managed to write a date ;_;)

I want to let go

But that I can't do

I don't know why

And please tell me so

I want to forgive

But that I can't tell

Your sin's too large

For it to be well

So much for things

So much for us

So much for promises

So much for love

All I can do is shed a tear

All I can do for now is to stop and fear

That there won't be a way to bring back what was lost

And that let's accept, we can't bring back "us"

I also didn't write the date on this one ;_; ( between the months of August-October)


I'll have to move on. You're pushing me away further and further to someplace where I can't go back to you anymore. Since you replaced me with someone else, go to her. " Just remember me as a memory."  It was all worth it. And I know you know that. You loved me. I loved you. Farewell.

- MAU -

Another poem by yours truly,


Lips pursing, hearts flaming

Rush whispers in the night

Body shifting, wind blowing

Under a star-lit sky

Ooh, where did we go wrong?

Was it you, or was it me?

Ooh, our happy ending ceased

Ooh, where is our song?

It slowly fades to the end

Hoping one day we'll go pretend

Like we're stranges with memories

We'll stop and think about the world we see

We'll continue to think about those we made and let's be

strangers with memories

Another dateless entry. This is a message for myself.

The love is gone, Mau :)

This is a message for you.

If he's meant for you, he would have chased you by now :)

Simple as that.

You deserve someone better.

Mr. RIght will arrive one day.
I assure you that ♥

Love you Mau.

P.S. You're strong.

But then, I was lying.

To myself.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

{ The Last Time}

Sorry for the late update guys. I got hospitalized last week and I was really feeling unwell. ~ :< boooooooooo

Since this will be my first post since my discharge, I would just like to share this song to everyone.

It's entitled as " The Last Time" by Taylor Swift ft. Gary Lightbody

I like the message of the song. It's quite... endearing. :')

Gary Lightbody:
Found myself at your door,
Just like all those times before,
I’m not sure how I got there,
All roads they lead me here.

I imagine you are home,
In your room, all alone,
And you open your eyes into mine,
And everything feels better,

Right before your eyes,
I’m breaking and fast,
No reasons why,
Just you and me.

This is the last time I’m asking you this,
Put my name on the top of your list,
This is the last time I’m asking you why,
You break my heart in the blink of an eye.

Taylor Swift:
You find yourself at my door,
Just like all those times before,
You wear your best apology,
But I was there to watch you leave,

And all the times I let you in,
Just for you to go again,
Disappear when you come back,
Everything is better.

When right before your eyes,
I’m aching, run fast,
Nowhere to hide,
Just you and me…

This is the last time I’m asking you this,
Put my name on the top of your list,
This is the last time I’m asking you why,
You break my heart in the blink of an eye, eye, eye…

This is the last time you tell me I’ve got it wrong,
This is the last time I say it’s been you all along,
This is the last time I let you in my door,
This is the last time, I won’t hurt you anymore.

Oh, oh, oh,

This is the last time I’m asking you this,
Put my name on the top of your list,
This is the last time I’m asking you why,
You break my heart in the blink of an eye.

This is the last time I’m asking you this, (this is the last time I’m asking you this)
Put my name on the top of your list, (name on the top of your list)
This is the last time I’m asking you why, (this is the last time I’m asking you why)
You break my heart in the blink of an eye. (You break my heart…)

This is the last time I’m asking you this,
Time I’m asking you this,
Time I’m asking you this,
Time I’m asking you this.. (x3)

icraveforcheesecake is the bomb. Thank you, cake. ♥

Gonna hang out with bf today. ;) WHEEEEEH~

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